how do I always get myself in these messes? now you know why I stopped doing that shit. you always get mad at me, call me names, talk behind my back and call me paranoid. Well i'm through with it all....it's what happens. I don't know why i get this way, but I do. And to be quite honest, i don't know how to stop it from happening. it's just in my brain, and just comes out, makes me say stupid things and makes you angered.

i was simply trying to be nice, i was trying to help you guys figure something out to do. i can't always find things to do. how does " I don't care?!" help me here? fuck...

Thanks for leaving me, when i needed someone to talk to.